The JYD may live on.

Some of our group members have decided to continue. I feel as though they are looking to me to lead. In many ways, I feel that I may be the only one who can turn this around and I might be. Though the truth is, we are all in this together. On one hand, we need to commit to build this group. We also need to realize that we won't have all the time in the world to do this. We need to work with other people. We need to build alliances. I want our objective in growing our group to be brining it home to young people in Jefferson County why they should vote Democratic. How politics affects them and why it is important to be involved. That should be our aim. In the short term, to help get out the vote among young people. I have heard two stories about how things were going wrong with certain members of our group. Personality conflicts mainly. I want to put all that behind us and move forward as a group. Because negativity breeds negativity. I am hoping that we can committ enough time and energy to building this group, even if we have other things that go on in our lives. Because we are all in this together.

Frustrations about the JYD.

Well, I think that the Jefferson County Young Democrats is over for the time being. There has been a lot of personal issues between members and personality conflicts. There have been many issues that arose from the CD7 primary. There also have been many issues as a result of how we want to conduct ourselves as a group. Though we all wanted to be a force for good, there were issues on how to proceed. On one hand, as small as we were, we may not have been able to spearhead an event. There has been argument about this, however we would have help from bigger groups but many felt antsy. It just annoys me that personal issues and in many cases, the unwillingness to committ to do something has caused these problems. The thing is, if you want to be sort of involved, find a big existing group and just blend in there. If you want to join a group that is small and in the formative stages, one needs to committ to doing something. There needs to be concensus on how to proceed. But there needs to be committment. That being said, hopefully we will be able to get Bill Ritter elected Governor, with Jeffco going to Bill, same with Bill Winter, Ed Perlmutter and our various state house and state senate candidates. I hope that one can create a new and lasting future for the JYD, but it isn't going to happen right now. Dealing with the stress of getting sideswiped by a drunk driver, I am spent. I will recover and continue to volunteer through this election season. I think Ed Perlmutter can win. I would like to lend some help to him. I want Bill Winter to win as well. He's a great candidate and would be a far superior comgressman to Tom Tancredo. I don't know if I can volunteer for that campaign because of some personal issues. I would also like to help out Bill Ritter. The thing I find interesting about Ritter is that he is essentially a moderate, but has some very progressive stances, especially with energy and the environment and the fact that he uses the moderate approach makes it easier to get his ideas across to conservatives. Good luck to all of us and our candidates in their endevours.

The stress of politics.

My JYD group is falling apart at the seams. On one side, there are people that seem to want to be involved, without being involved and on the other side there are people that are fed up with trying to make things work. There may not be anything to do with this election cycle, as far as the JYD is concerned. Should the group fall apart, if there is a relaunch in 2007, am I the guy to be the point person on it? I don't know. Well, I think I may pe putting in more work with Ed Perlmutter's campaign even though I live in Bill Winter's district. I will still donate to Bill, but there are reasons I just can't be there. One is that even though I live in CD 6, I live in Jeffco, and Jeffco barely gets acknowledged in the CD6 race. For Jeffco stuff, I have to go into CD7. THough there is another issue. Mainy a comfort one. (See Previous Post). I just don't know what the hell I am supposed to do.

All the things on my mind.

God the political volunteering is getting insane. I have volunteered for Bill Ritter, Bill Winter, Ed Perlmutter, Andy Kerr and Gwen Green this cycle. When I'm not at my job, I am volunteering or doing political stuff. I honestly enjoy it, but with so many people wanting my help, it is stressful. I write this, blowing off steam, listening to Audioslave. "Show me How to Live" is so true right now. I have the push to get a better job. A voice inside my head says, "you are a smart guy. You can do better than this." But, I also want to be at the job for over a year, because that means that I am stable. I'm a temp, so a year is definitely stable. I just hope that I can make that next leap. God knows that I need to. The other thing is, my involvement in politics (the interesting journey that it has been) has led me to meet some interesting people. Candidates, officeholders, people who work in politics. Last November, I met this woman. Early 30's. Attractive, smart, friendly, funny. I have developed a crush on her. She works on a campaign and is extremely busy. The crush started to happen as I saw her more often. At a lot of events. The thing is, I know that she's extremely busy. So am I. The thing is I'd like to get to know her better. I know that people say "Nothing Ventured, Nothing Gained." I really have a hard time gauging her interest. If she has any. She's also a political person, which is why I was skeptical to begin with. They can hobnob with anybody. But I have seen her in the more casual setting. She has been equally as friendly. The thing is, I liked her earlier on, back in the spring and thought that she must have had a boyfriend or have been married. Then a friend of mine at Drinking Liberally started to get together with her. And I didn't want to mess with that because he is my friend. It doesn't seem to have panned out, partly because she is busy as hell and he seemed to be interested in other people. Though I thought he liked her most because he just swoons over her. Though he does that less now. I just don't know. Because I'm sick of this shit. Sick of liking women. They never seem to like me back and I had been quite serious about giving it up. Live my life. No point in agonizing over it. Well, this is a post just to dump out some of my personal thoughts. It isn't overly political. I know, but I just needed to do a core dump or something like that.