Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Snow, Snow Everywhere.

Welcome to Denver Colorado, where we will probably have 2 feet of snow on the ground and the Governor Bill Owens (R) has declared a state of emergency, but wait a minute. There is no National Guard in Colorado. They've been sent to Iraq. Oh well. Just hope we don't lose power. There have been some big snow storms, but the 4th big blizzard in my 24 years of living in this state. My first winter here was the blizzard of 1982.

Kind of disappointed because I may not be able to make my counseling session tomorrow. Right now, just got to write some of my thoughts down. In private. Just to get them out. Trying to take a song that I have heard recently to heart.

Lyrics apply to me a lot as of late:

It's over your head
And you don't seem to understand
One word I say
And you can't live your life
Trying to run away

You're fighting your friends
You're wearing everybody out
But it never ends
You're wearing me out

Come on
Reach out
And let somebody in your life

Don't get me wrong
You always apologize
It's just your way
Of making a scene
You need to be loved
It's not such a crime

Come on
Reach out
And let somebody in your life

Over your head
You just don't seem to understand
One word I say
And you can't live your life
You got so much love
It's burning inside

Come on
Reach out
And let somebody in your life

Just got to keep it in mind.

And the blogger people can't seem to make up their mind. Beta blogger is dead. Long live beta blogger. The new format's the same. I guess the name beta just died. Who knows.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Went to "An Inconvenient Truth" house party last night.

Pretty low-key affair. Though they were going on all over the country. But we participated in a conference call with Al Gore, watched the movie and wrote postcards to our congressman (unfortunately for me, that would be Tom Tancredo). Once that was over, I went home. I keep reflecting on ways that I could reduce my part of the emissions. Change a few habits, etc. The bus to work isn't practical for me for many reasons. Too bad I don't work downtown. I'd take lightrail. I will have to buy the DVD, if I don't get it for Christmas.

That was after having gone to a cat shelter for a few hours. I keep thinking that I would like to get a cat. I worry about money. Especially since I have gone into therapy to figure out how to fix myself. I have a lot of ground to cover. I need to look into healthcare coverage, but that will be difficult, I'm sure.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

"We need to raise the voting age to 40."

Okay. This is a quickie. I had seen the results from the race in Texas' 23rd Congressional district and the end result is another pickup for the Democrats. Appearently the right-wing bloggers are shitting bricks over this and they are complaining about how the youth vote along with illegals is responsible. So, their solution. Raise the voting age to 40. God these people are fucking retarded.

On another note, Ed Perlmutter, the guy I helped to put in Congress has been assigned to financial services.,2777,DRMN_23906_5208440,00.html

Sunday, December 10, 2006

Need to be honest right now.

Well, first off, tonight I went to a celebration by the Ritter campaign. It was fun. They were at the Grizzly Rose and I remember some of the people from Salazar's campaign two years ago. I was gratified to have the chance to tell the Governor-elect "Good Luck". Just one more month until he takes office. I hope to participate in the inaguration. Though I sometimes feel I don't deserve to be there because I spent most of my time working for Perlmutter and didn't help Ritter that much, but I am glad to have gotten the email about that party so I could go.

Well, now, on to the cruxt of my post tonight. I will admit that I have been struggling with depression. I don't entirely understand what I am going through. Because I can be upbeat sometimes. I can tell jokes, I can be conversational and charming and then other times, I can be depressed and very distant. The depression has probably existed for a long time, but has gone on for the last 4 years. Though I will say, these last 2 years have been better than the 2 before them. But the fact is, I feel like I am at a crossroads. Sometimes I don't know who I am anymore. Am I the social, charming and humerous guy, or the morose, depressed and and remote guy. One person suggested that I am by choice evolving towards being the former after having been the latter. I feel that may be true. But the struggle I am in is very intense. I am dealing with socialization issues, as well as personal self-worth issues. Under those circumstances, I have decided to get help. I am worried about money, but am hoping to be okay. Even though I don't have health insurance. My first session is on Thursday.

I will say this. I know that while I am struggling, I may have hurt some of my friends. To them, I want to say (again if necessary) I am sorry. Very sorry for the way that I have treated you. I don't want to lose any of you. I don't want you to cut me out of your lives. Being part of them means the world to me. Having you ask me to do things with you does as well. I have realized that I have hurt many of you and I am working to get help before I hurt you more as well as destroy myself. I will work to be as positive and upbeat as I can be and have been. It may take time for me to reach what I want to reach in life, but I will reach it. Right now, I have to own up to my problem. Thank you all for your understanding.

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Watching and rewatching "The West Wing".

Okay, so the engine that powers my blog has just been updated. Well, I have the first two seasons of "The West Wing" on DVD. I got them for my birthday. Also, I have been rewatching the Seventh season via mail-in DVD's from Blockbuster. It has come to the point that the Seventh Season is probably my favorite West Wing Season. It is the one that I have a personal frame of reference for. It deals with a Presidential campaign to succeed Jed Bartlett as President of the United States with Matthew Santos and deals with yourCampaign mistakes, the opponent's mistakes and who has the momentum, all leading up to the moment of truth. Victory or defeat. Having campaigned for Ken Salazar's Senate campaign in 2004, and Ed Perlmutter's congressional campaign in 2006, it is relatable. Though I was on a smaller scale since it wasn't a Presidential race. But, just some ruminations. I was thinking on this snowy, lazy day. Want to stay in tonight because I will be at the Broncos game tomorrow night and it will be cold. Got to get the wool socks and pants out.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Bush pisses off Senator-elect Jim Webb.

Well well well. Bush steps in it again. I remember reading about how after the 2004 elections Barack Obama went to the White House for a welcome reception. Obama said that Bush was very down-to-earth. He figured that it was the kind of guy you could like, if you don't discuss politics.

In contrast, Jim Webb was at a similar reception just recently. According to the spectator the exchange went as follows:

At a private reception held at the White House with newly elected lawmakers shortly after the election, Bush asked Webb how his son, a Marine lance corporal serving in Iraq, was doing.

Webb responded that he really wanted to see his son brought back home, said a person who heard about the exchange from Webb.

“I didn’t ask you that, I asked how he’s doing,” Bush retorted, according to the source.

Webb confessed that he was so angered by this that he was tempted to slug the commander-in-chief, reported the source, but of course didn’t. It’s safe to say, however, that Bush and Webb won’t be taking any overseas trips together anytime soon.

This is from a thread on Daily Kos:

I must say, I find it interesting that Bush, who at this point should be very concerned about his legacy, who had to face a reality that people in America were not happy with him or his party because of their policies, has shown that he might have to change his ways and yet more recently has decided to "stay the course".

It takes more than a Democratic Congress to make Bush stop posturing over a war that was ill-advised and sadly, lost long ago. So much for being bipartisan and conciliatory.

Sunday, November 26, 2006

Colorado: Our Purple State.

Many on Daily Kos have been talking about the upcoming senate races for 2008. I for one am looking forward to them as revenge to take on those who gave us an unfair and divisive drubbing in 2002, when I was regrettably asleep at the wheel. The point is, Allard has low approvals and whether or not he runs again, his seat will be a top target for sure. In the midst of talking about his seat among 3 other pickups, they classified all states as blue states. From their computers to God's ears, but we need to look at why Dems have won the last two election cycles in Colorado. We have fielded good candidates that fit the state or their district as a whole quite well. The promised to give their people a voice in Government. In 2006, all of them were re-elected because they delivered on that promise. Also, more of them got elected by following the same formula.

On the flipside, Republicans in Colorado (and eventually nationally) got arrogant. They pushed wedge issues and did not speak for the state. They took the people here for granted and we presented them with an alternative giving them what they wanted. A voice. The reasons I don't want to hear people call Colorado a blue state is because we are not. At least not now. And even if and when we are, we cannot take the state for granted the way the Republicans did. I know I am preaching to the choir, but that is how I feel about things as they are.

Reading Obama's book.

Well, I started actually reading Barack Obama's book. He had some interesting things to say about less partisan division in the past and how shared experiences with World War II brought them closer together. How the upheavel of the 60's made it possible for him to get to where he is in his life and into the US Senate. He writes as articulately as he speaks. I didn't get very far into it, but it is shaping up to be an interesting read. Reading further, he discusses a lot the ideological divide that has become more sharp in recent years. He has said what I have felt for a long time. Politics is about compromise. The Right and even the left have come into a point of being absolutist in their views. A lot of language involving "either/or" or "for or against" is becoming more prevalent. I, myself have been guilty of that mainly as a reaction to what I have seen on the Republican side. It is easy to get into this, but if we are to make Government work, we need to move beyond it.